I've Had Enough

Understandable.........eveyone has thoese now and then.

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Guys I had a kind of motional breakdown yesterday and I said alot of things I didnt mean, Like I said to several of my friends to leave me alone, they piss me off, i hate them etc etc etc I would just like to apolagize to everyone *bows* IM SORRY!

i will not be leaving this site but I will be spending some time away from the site, to sort myself out.

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You can choose to run, but dying won't change a thing. Trust me on that one. If you really want things to change...you're going to have to live. Even if there's no meaning in this life...at best, this world is a breeding ground of paranoia and selfishness.
Someday you'll let go of my hand. when you finally look to the far, far sky, I'll kick you from behind and laugh at you to hurry.

Explain to me, with that mouth of yours. This bitter feeling. Where do you want me to put it?

If you want to be happy- Throw reason out the window...I guess.
It's only for themselves that people live and die.
Remember these last words. I will slowly close my eyes. So stay there and watch. My vision is stained the color of blood when i speak of your face. Always, when I speak of your face.

*falls out of set* You know I just rembered something. Everyone make a opps evey know and agian. I should bee the one saing sorry. Wait a sec.......Abel.....Wha? Nver mind. I need to get to bed. Oh last time I stay up this late on a comp. Makes me kind crazy!

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OMG I'm so sorry Iruka, I didn't notice, I saw it and I just thought, "Not again." not even noticing it was you, it was very well written, sorry *bows* sorry *bows*. *Begs forgiveness of the Abel Queen*

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Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice but falling in love with you I had no control over.

Why does eveyone think Doku's the only one who can get deep! Really I mean comeone. Read my sig, that's what I wrote!

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*Sighs* See you DM, life's hard but I see you found an alternative, hope you feel better.

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Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice but falling in love with you I had no control over.

I understand what you mean. Holding it all in to make the world happy. Hiding things you don't want the world to know. You want to tell someone but you can't cuz you find it hard to tell anyone. It hurts cuz you have to hold it in, when you know your not happy. Tho when you let it out you think you've done something wroung. It hurts cuz you know no matter what you do you end up with all the berdons. Cuz you know you can't fool yourself by saying "I'm fine, just as normale as can be.", you know your not and others think you are. It hurts to think other just look on the out side, instead of looking for the crying soul on the inside. That inside you hurt and your in pain, and that not a dame soul understands that past you fake smile lies a crying soul. A soul crying for help and attion. JUst for someone to save your, but they don't becase there duluded fools.

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Perhaps you were investing too much emotional energy into this site. I hope you start feeling better.

I've had enough of this site and I've had enough of some people and I've had enough of everything, of college, of tryingto make people happy all the time, of hiding my true emotions away and pretending im happy all the time when Im not, Im far frm happy, Im very very sad and im finding it hard to break away from the sadness.

Im leaving this site, will i returnpossibly but I doubt I will....goodbye

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You can choose to run, but dying won't change a thing. Trust me on that one. If you really want things to change...you're going to have to live. Even if there's no meaning in this life...at best, this world is a breeding ground of paranoia and selfishness.
Someday you'll let go of my hand. when you finally look to the far, far sky, I'll kick you from behind and laugh at you to hurry.

Explain to me, with that mouth of yours. This bitter feeling. Where do you want me to put it?

If you want to be happy- Throw reason out the window...I guess.
It's only for themselves that people live and die.
Remember these last words. I will slowly close my eyes. So stay there and watch. My vision is stained the color of blood when i speak of your face. Always, when I speak of your face.