-"You don't realise your potential. This colony needs someone with your skill. You seek to destroy it, but you shall not. You are more than what you think. We shall show you the way, and we shall make you truly invincible... we shall make you a god!"
-"I came here... ONLY to KILL you!!!" -Prey It seems my return was a little trick, deception, but I did not need to find that out to realise the ultimate truth: Anime Cutie is dying, it is stripped of what made it appealling to me, of what made it a home to me, it is nothing but a shell of what it once was, a stagnant beast, a dead husk, I find no comfort here. Originally, my return was, I admit, for more than one thing. It was for the CyberFusion Role-Play, for which a solution has been found which does not need Anime Cutie. It was also for a person. More importantly, my return was a "perfect birthday present". Though that has been shattered as well, because the aforementioned person is indeed the "recepient" of this present. I do not know why the third party orchestrated my return for such a puprose without my knowledge. I am slightly hurt by this deception. However, it proves one thing: I was not needed for the Role-Play after all; as a matter of fact, role-playing was better off without my return. Naruto RP has taken the main spotlight, with everyone mostly immersed in that as the main Role-Play. It seems my taking CyberFusion elsewhere was redundant. What also went wrong, for both me and the third party, was this person mentioned before. I wanted to return for this person, the third party wanted me to return to the person. Both of us wanted this person to be happy. Now this person refuses me again, without even an attempt at redemption. If anything, this "birthday present" only served to open old wounds. My anger now is white-hot, my rage is being controlled only by my sheer sadness and despair. I have no more energy to fight for this person, I realise now that said person has given up hope. My energy to fight for this person is gone, my energy to fight for Anime Cutie is gone. I have abandoned all hope here, there is nothing left for me here. I have returned from exile, only to look at the death, and turn to leave. The one reason I do not fire a merciful bullet to the head of this dying creature called Anime Cutie is because of my friend, who still is here, and who knows himself. I leave now. Please, stop asking me to return. I was so close to forgetting it all. The person, the website, so close to removing it from my mind. Why was I brought back? Now it shall take even longer to forget... the pain is fresh again. Please, stop asking me to return. Farewell. |
StyX : please do, its driver pol and i to fighting.
Shadowmancer : Flower some of what he says is true. He has a right to say the things he says, to be angry, as do I, but holding onto it and turning it into bitterness no longer gives anyone the right to be angry.
StyX, he's not running away this time. I asked him to leave. If you want to know why or anything else, I will disclose that information to you privately.
StyX : I was the one mentioned as "the person", i have the right to comment on everything i wrote. As you may not know, i tried to bring him back, and now he's running away once again. And you've done nothing to help it.
bleeding_flower : thats real mean StyX!!!!!!!! how dare you!!!!!!!!!!!!
StyX : Read my profile here on Anime-cutie and look for the thing i hate most in people. You are the epitome of it. Thanks for nothing.
StyX : I dont like your tone, nor your cosmetic play on words in order to sway the general sympathy towards you, so i will disperse of them. You are a stuck up and arrogant pig, if i had known that you would react in such a way i wouldn't have asked you to come back. The fact that im not PMing you about this shows how little i now care. The fact that you never think about others is a flaw that i hope you will come to dislike about yourself, as others have already begun to dislike you. You say you have no friends outside of the internet polaris, and to this day i didnt think that would be true. As a last message to you: i think before we speak again, you should look at your morals and begin to consider treating people with some of the respect they attempt to show you.
Shadowmancer : Flower, you should probably just leave him alone.
bleeding_flower : so thats it then? you are just giving up? thats disapointing
Polaris : The "person", the "third party", and the "friend" are three different people, just to make this blog a little clearer.