awoke from the dark murkiness of the night
I hear the rain beat the ground I walk out into the dark murkiness of the night I look down to the sharp ground. I see a puddle of water, the rain in the dark I feel my feet swim beneath the water I look up through the endless night I close my eyes I hear my fast breathing I clench my fists I try to block the screams I open my eyes I glance up around at the stars I sigh deeply in the dark. I look down I stare down to the puddle of water I whatch my feet freeze in the icy water I drop down to my knees I hit the ground as my knees bled. I lay out my whole body I spread myself out in the water I feel the icy pain shoot through my entire body I curl myself up I hold myself tightly I move my knees to my chest I clench my hands together I feel my hair flow in the water. I close my eyes I see darkness I feel the rain strike me like blades I hear the rain crash around me I feel the wind blow onto me I lay in the cruel darkness I feel my tears I feel them stream down my face I hear the cries I hear the pain I hear the grief I have to punish. I have to show whats right I must show myself. I cant scream I cant fill my lungs enough I cant see the point I have no one around to hear me. I take a breath I whisper your name I hold my lungs I feel weak I have nothing I let myself go. I open my eyes I hear nothing but silent winds I feel the breeze I feel the air I hear sounds I dont hear screams I dont hear cries I rise to my feet I wipe my face I dry the damp. I look up to the sky I see clear I cant see the stars I am not in the darkness I am in the light. I look down I see the water I notice my reflection I gaze down I splash the water I make ripples I cant see myself I know now It was me I was crying I was screaming I was in the cold I was the water I sit down I sit still I sit in the water I sit in shedded tears I whisper your name I again, whisper your name I again, stare at my reflection I think to myself I think of you I think hard I know I cant I cannot face the facts. I know that I must I know its hard I must punish myself I must punish for being this way. I know I cant have you I know its not possible I must punish myself for being this way. I may never have you I know you dont want me I must punish myself for loving you the way I do I know I musnt I try not to I try so hard I feel pain I feel slicing, beating, throbbing, stabbing pain in my heart I know it hurts. I have the heart to be punished. I still love you I know I musnt I cant have you I dont deserve you I know you dont want me I cant face it I know I have to, I must, I will have to, but its the hardest thing I am destroying myself I have to get over it. I need you I desperatly need you I love you I just cant abandon my love for you. I am sorry for being the way I am I will not bother you again I hope I wont cause you any frustration I just love you. I lay down I take in a breath I close my eyes I hold my lungs I let my hands drift away from my chest I let my hair float around me I push towards the end. I feel one last tear I feel it I let go I let go of my pain I let go of you I know you were always there I know I always knew we couldnt be one. I set myself free I am free from my pain. I never knew I would feel pain like this I never knew this kind of love existed I feel this strong, powerful, undying love I feel it for you. I always knew ever since I met you I loved you I will give my life for you. I can no longer cry I can no longer scream I can no longer feel pain, I dont want you to be sad. I always dreamed that our souls would merge I can still dream... I want you to be happy With... or without me... I Love You. It drags on a bit, I wrote this about a year or two ago about someone I loved, but who has hurt me immensly... |
Rukia15 : oh sorry about what happened to you *hugs* It explains it clearly
Rukia15 : It is so well written I suggest you write more like it! ^^ Poetry is something I love to write and this is extra special!! ^6 Good Job!!
Kitty Kat : its really good. long but very good
Deko Wolf : I guess some of us already know who's that person Dolphin talks about.
*sigh* Sis...I trust you to be fine.
DarkMousey : oh Dolphin *hugs* I will always be here for you to help you through that pain.
ocean sky : *hugs u tightly* i'm sorry bout that dolphin. But hey! Its a very good well written poem, i love it... So much emotions to it.