death is death thats all it doesnt change it all comes to one end rotting... your said soul may go some where esle but your body no matter what rots... ya im mostly at a neutral state i dont let my angry out but metal lets my lessen the hatered in side my self.. my head and metal that i let in is what keeps me alive... if i didnt have those 2 things i would be dead by now... suicde hasnt been a to far off thoguth for me in the past but i know i coudnlt put my body to that kinda of pain but ever day i put my body to a test of how much pain can it take before i kill my self.. hands growing old of pain lungs and other organs growing bad of punisment i put them throw.....when i was younger i thought i would live to be 80 now that time is passing im thinking and seeing my age of my death closeing in sooner and sooner 75, 70, 50,45,30, theres so much i hide in side... no body knows its great its like my own secert world know body sees my true thoguhts i have great thoughts and theroys but they are fastly forgotten never time to right them down my outter self loses all the memory of thinking it. but when im alone it all comes crawling back to me in my solitude, were metal over welming my head or tv blanking out of my sight as i sit there not moving my braining wandering around by its self but then it all gone locked away in my deep thoguhts not to surface again untill the next time that time comes...
thanks heru/ timmy/ helping a true side of me come that i dont let out unless locked up in my self. live.die.move on.
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